Rot inside a corpsey shell…
I am pondering today. I am pondering about how I feel, about who I am, and about what I want. I tend to talk about all of these things constantly, but I never ask myself WHY I am the way I am.
I think inherently, most people do not try to look deeper than what’s on the surface because either they don’t care, or they don’t want to know. It’s easier to know someone by looking at them than talking to them, but if you make the effort to try, you just might be surprised.
I believe I am a perfect example of this philosophy. To my friends who know me outside of twitter, they see a dude that’s a little stranger than most. To everyone on the internet, I’m like some kind of superhero, people give me praise, and they like what I do. But which one of these is the truth?
I talk about Duality a lot, that each person has the element to do a good or bad deed based on the situation they are in, and they usually have to make a choice. It could be as small as picking Coke or Pepsi, or going to the mall instead of the movies. The biggest of these would be something like a Sophie’s Choice, where you must choose who lives and who dies. Most of the time we are not given much of a choice, but when we are, we usually go for what seems to be most comfortable for us.
I am not like this. I would rather challenge myself and take the harder route than make things easy on myself. Sure, I don’t like when things go badly, but that doesn’t mean I want to half-ass anything either. I work well under pressure, I always have, and I always will.
Anyway, my point is that there is always something deeper within us as people that made us who we are now, and who we will be in the future. If you’re going through a crisis of faith, you will find your path if you try. If you are thinking of suicide, think of life instead and live for today. If you can’t find love, you must think positive and it will find you. Think of all you’ve been through up until this point in your life and you will find what you seek.
You need to remember that people are just as scared of you as you are of them, so approach them with open arms instead of with shut eyes and closed mouths. Love, understand, and educate.
This is respect.