When you lie through your teeth
Folks, I want you to look at yourselves today and ask yourself this question;
“Am I Satisfied?”
Most people would probably say no, as they always want something more. They are Seekers, like me. It’s not that I’m not satisfied, it’s just that I know there is always more to do and things to find out, about yourself, about the world we live in, about the people, about the culture…
No one person, I believe, could ever solve all the mysteries of the universe, not even a deity. I don’t think anyone, godly or otherwise, could have the amount of power to control the switch.
So realize, that life is not about learning the answers to life’s great questions. They get answered for you as time goes on, and you live, and then you either accept what you did, or you die regretting.
It is not worth it to live your life in misery just because you feel you don’t have the power. You just have to find the confidence within you, and understand that the universe can’t just hand you what you want on a silver platter. You have to work for it, and think about it constantly. You have to have passion, because without it, you will not succeed in your goal. You have to motivate yourself, and know that you can do better.
“Words have the power to both destroy and heal. When they are true and kind, they can change our world.”
There and Back Again: A Hobbit’s Tale
I know I don’t post as often as I used to on here, but honestly? If you can’t see I’m busy, then you obviously don’t have a life. I cannot possibly fill your void as well as mine all the fucking time. I’m only human! Well, MOSTLY human.
Anyway, all joking aside, I’m doing incredibly well. I just found out I got straight A’s for my first semester at Hogwarts, er, I mean, Film School. I’m working on 3 summer school classes, all of which are more difficult than the 4 I took before. Good stress is better than no stress I guess as deadlines have to be met, and I can only work as hard as I can, when I can.
I am passionate about Film, more than I am passionate about just anything(except for anything related to sex and weed), but given my knowledge I suppose it is not so surprising. It’s hard to describe in words how it feels to me when I watch a film, how I can break it down into such minute detail, how I let them wash over me, and guide me along. I didn’t have many friends when I was younger. I was always an outsider, gifted but weird. When I put on movies on the TV with old school VHS tapes, I was transported away to another world, a place of wonder. Time seems elongated, everything is possible, and the mind’s eye wanders. I suppose you could say that films have always been my friends. They were there for me in my darkest days when not a soul could understand my torment. I felt connected, and that I was not alone.
Isolationism is a very difficult and strenuous thing, yet I deal with it on a constant basis. I suppose that because I don’t fit in with society’s “standards”, I’ll never be like everyone else. Good, because I don’t want to. I am Henry, and that’s the only person I need to be, and if people don’t like me, they don’t have to deal with me. This is how I am, and I only change if I want to change. Sometimes, I wish I could give you all more details of why I feel the way I do, but it’s such a difficult story to describe in words. I plan on writing and making a film about it one day, when I am healed, but for now, guessing is your best option.